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[Aug. 25th, 2008|04:39 pm] |
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| | jay-z - 99 problems | ] |
well...once again...school starts. once again...i don't have my fucking books. this has been quite the trend for the past five years. i don't have anyway to get a loan so that's out. basically all i can do is fill out a special circumstances paper for the school that basically says i'm poor...feel bad and give me dollars. if only i could do that at work. it would be great to be able to tell the boss to just give me money. it would be even better if it actually worked. i guess i can't bitch too much. i bought my abnormal psychology book online today for about 22 dollars. that's about 100 dollars cheaper than what the bookstore on campus is selling it for.
those greedy bastards. |
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[Aug. 20th, 2008|07:10 am] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
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| | Otep-confrontation | ] |
My doctor needs to get her ass in gear and get the ball rolling so i can go back to school next week. That bitch procrastinates like none other. I've actually been keeping on it i'm just getting stalled by her. This is seriously stressing me out. I think i could cry. |
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[Aug. 16th, 2008|03:12 am] |
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| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | MIA-paper planes | ] |
good god am i tired. I slept for about thirteen hours last night. I should be wide awake for days. Instead...i can barely keep my eyes open. All i want to do is take a nap for about three days. That would be nice. |
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| Fucking Finally |
[Aug. 13th, 2008|03:55 am] |
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| |  apathetic | ] |
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| | the jingling of my keys | ] |
well...i got full time. yay benefits! |
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[Aug. 10th, 2008|01:02 pm] |
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| | exhausted | ] |
Damn, i'm tired. I'm getting sick of working doubles on the weekend. The overtime is nice and all but it's starting to take it's toll. I've been working almost fifty hours a week. It makes for some nice paychecks and all but a raise would be nice so i didn't have to work so much. I'm going to be dragging ass this coming semester. It blows. I have to work overtime in order to pay all my bills AND put gas in my car. I had to take a bit of a pay cut to take this job. I would regret it but i love my job. Then again i did start off making more than other people who started before i did. The only reason for that is my being a free peon...i mean...an intern for about four months. On the upside this is i'm pretty much assured the open full time position. Another good thing about this job is the learning experience it's been. I can spot someone with borderline personality disorder from a mile a way. Also this is padding my resume. Now if only i could graduate that way i can get a case management position. |
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| So so tired |
[Aug. 3rd, 2008|02:46 am] |
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I'm so damn sick of working doubles on the weekends. One more 17 hour day and i get a couple of days off. It's time for a nap i'm freaking dying. |
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| You're stuck kitty |
[Jul. 30th, 2008|04:52 am] |
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| |  nauseated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | My stinky kitty purring | ] |
Well...one more day and i'll find out whether or not i'm getting full time. I fucking need full time...well and overtime. Benefits would be nice too. I'm looking at my august schedule and i've come to realize that i am about to have no life. Not that that's not the case right now. I came home tonight and was only greeted by cats. It's rocking and all but kind of lonely. I had to stop at my mom's after work and that just tore me apart. This is the third day in a row i have seen her. It's not like i don't love my mom i do but visiting her is like visiting someone who is dying and doesn't even know it. I had to choke back tears when i was talking to her before i left. Today started off great too. I had fun at work and scared an intern. The dude i work with and i played the whose childhood was more fucked up game. We ended up in a tie. I didn't even break into all of the bad shit and i'm sure he didn't either but it's still good to know i'm not alone. |
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| Vaycay |
[Jul. 29th, 2008|03:15 am] |
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| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Mc chris-i want candy | ] |
So. My mom wants me to go to myrtyl beach with her. That's all well and good except for the fact that i'll have to spend almost ten hours in a car with her. To top it off she won't be able to drink. Hopefully she's not all bitchy. I guess i could always give her some tranquilizers and a bag of weed. That would keep her occupied. I did find it amusing the other day when she was showing me a lamp in her room and told me it would be badass to look at if you're tripping on acid. Dios mio |
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| Lost friends...well...friend rather |
[Jul. 27th, 2008|04:42 pm] |
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| |  nostalgic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The sounds of my cat trying to wake me up | ] |
This is directed at you goebel. Long time no talkie. I'm out of the black hole at the moment so yeah. We should probably hang out and catch up on the past thirty years. Celesties@aol.com. I'd leave my number but not here so email me. I miss the wonderful drunken times |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2006|11:38 pm] |
this blows goats...i'm home alone until sunday night. teresa and jessi went to PA to go see their parents. i get to hang out with the animals.
yay? |
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| i'm completely obsessed |
[Aug. 31st, 2006|10:35 pm] |
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i have a teaser for the cats. i can't stop playing with the baby with it. it's just so damn cute. this is one of the only things that made my day better.
i think i'm deleting my myspace...fuck that shit...i don't have time for it and it's just a great big pain in my ass. i'm sticking to the livejournal. |
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[Jun. 17th, 2006|09:29 pm] |
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Jesus Christ I'm so bored. Fuck this shit. I'm sick of being in this house all by myself. People need to come home now...not Monday. |
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[Jun. 11th, 2006|02:41 am] |
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| |  surprised | ] |
This evening I helped drag a very very drunk Matt Buck into the back seat of Alex Vaughn's car.
I think I want to go to the reunion now. |
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[May. 1st, 2006|09:07 pm] |
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Happy Beltane motherfuckers |
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[Apr. 12th, 2006|12:05 pm] |
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I almost forgot...I wanna give a great big thanks to the Goebel for saturday night. |
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[Apr. 12th, 2006|11:57 am] |
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Well...I'm completely single again. It feels so odd. For the past 3 years I've had someone that I loved to death and I thought they loved me and would never lie to me and hurt me. But they did. I really wish things could have worked out with him but they never will so I just have to get past that and try to move on. It's really hard pretending that he doesn't exist but it will get easier with time.
I'm trying not to hate him...just the kind of person that he is...so does that mean I hate him?
I guess everytime I think about how much I love and miss him I'll have to think back to all those times that he promised me he would never lie to me or do anything that would hurt me. I guess I could also think about how he tore my self esteem to shreds...that makes me not want to love him or miss him.
So...I need to start spending more time with friends right now...I'm a sad sad girl.
So much time wasted on someone who I thought would be the person I would spend the rest of my life with. I guess if he was ready to make that committment himself he wouldn't have acted the way he did.
Goddamnit. |
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[Apr. 6th, 2006|09:18 am] |
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| | spiteful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Terrible Lie-NIN | ] |
I think I hate everybody in the world |
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[Mar. 30th, 2006|10:49 am] |
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my theology teacher just stopped me after class to ask me if something was wrong. apparently i look depressed.
i couldn't imagine why |
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[Feb. 6th, 2006|10:16 am] |
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It's over. No more Andy in my life. I am full of so much rage, hate, and pain right now. I don't know whether to cry or break something. Love is not supposed to hurt. I wish I could erase the past 3 years of my life and start all over. I've never hurt so bad in my life. Fuck him for making me feel this way. Fuck him for all the times he's made me cry. Fuck him for ever existing. I hate love and everything to do with it. I have never loved a male that has not caused me pain and Andy is just like all the rest.
I'm better off without that piece of shit in my life.
I just wish I could be happy though.
I wish I still didn't love him.
Fuck love. It's a worthless emotion that has caused me nothing but pain. |
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| Fuck You Excel |
[Jan. 25th, 2006|01:32 pm] |
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Whoever wrote the help menues for Microsoft Excel can kiss the fattest part of my ass. That shit is impossible to decipher. I've been trying for hours to make a simple little histogram and it ain't happening. Fuck this shit. I've been looking online for help and i found a whole lot of nothing. I went to the Microsoft website...and what do you know...nothing.
Fuck You Excel...you are a tool of dorks and the devil.
By the way...if anybody and help me out....LET ME KNOW!!!
My stats class relies heavily on excel even though the professor won't teach that part to the class...apparently we're expected to know it.
Bah!
FUCK! |
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